The Mistake

There are moments in life that help clarify who a man is to become, for some it is an easy thing for others something more difficult which catapults him on the path which he will take.  Then there are those whose paths have nothing to do with their own choices; their lives are dictated by made by others even before they are born.  It is just such a man whose story I will endeavor to relate.

The year this came to fruition was, well it really does not matter,so lets just say it happened in a young country whose real history was clouded by mass produced propaganda to be taught in its state run schools.  What came of that was the belief that to some extent still lies just under the surface. This is the belief, that says what I believe is right has to be true.  The reality is far different but that is for another time, another place, another discussion.  It is in this year as history was unfolding at a pace more rapid than what most could believe of course technically this is not true but with the new way of disseminating information almost instantly along with the belief that we did kick the Good Lord out of the country we had an era of do what makes you feel good and do not worry about the consequences.  Well for one young couple that was not entirely true but even they were caught up in the movement between themselves.  With two infants already in their care they took measures to insure another would not come along as they practiced this do what makes you feel good and do not worry about the consequences.

One day she was late, it had to be a mistake as the doctor said that little pill would keep such things from happening.  Nine months later another child was born, he was the mistake.  I cannot be sure but as the young woman ad valued her figure and had hoped to become an actress or model I believe she had at times thought about making the decision to reverse the mistake.  For some reason she did not.

It would be after yet another child they would both decide being wed was a mistake and would part their separate ways with the encouragement of both of their families.  It would be only another year when the decision would be made that she could not raise four children on her own.  Some would call that the mistake but in hindsight it was the best decision for the children and in particular the Mistake.  This is one of those defining moments for the Mistake as having for the most part been ignored as he went from being an infant to a little boy he found freedom and learned that sometimes exercising said freedom came with a price and that their were rules to freedom particularly if you are small.  It was in the exercising of said freedom that he was noticed who made their own mistakes in thinking they could be his mom.

How many times he had to redo his spelling lessons, or sit in his room or worse the corner to contemplate why his choices in exercising his said freedom were not right he could not recall.  It was in his time stuck in his room listening to other children laugh and play that our growing mistake found he liked reading as he could learn knew things.  As the years went on this too became an issue as he would read his school books and listen to the teachers but then he exercised the freedom to verify that what he was being taught was completely true. Sad to say it was not, for his classmates this was always a good thing as when the mistake would question the validity, teachers would be distracted and forget to assign that night's assignments.  It became so bad that there were teachers who would search him out and ask him not to show up to school which was something he had already started doing on his own.  It was toward the end of the Mistake's government required education that he went from being a mistake and became a failure according to the powers that were.

With a smile on his face the Mistake ignored the thoughts, the looks and the discussions spoken behind his back as he really did not care what people thought.  This saved him.  It was by the time when most of his classmates were deciding what institute of higher learning they would invest their parent's money, the mistake had already been living as a man for a couple of years.  His self induced education showed, but in some ways also hindered.  He was overlooked as men who wore black dresses to show they were now learned were given accolades.  Smiling the Mistake found a freedom in this misplaced inequality.